I hope you can get over your phobia some day as well. I’ve lived with emetophobia for most of my life and they can be pretty crippling. You might want to check out this older thread about arachnopobia and iNat.
Growing up in Hawaii, roaches were just a part of life and we all see them in their homes from time to time (same with geckos and centipedes). Not a fan of those pest ones and they can definitely be a bit intimidating!