Oh, unrelatedly, i wanted to post about one ‘odd’ thing i have always done that helped me figure this all out. I draw maps. Like, for work i draw maps of wetlands, but since i’ve been a kid i have drawn maps of hypothetical imaginary places.
I was very surprised to learn that a lot of people on the autism spectrum draw similar sorts of things. I thought i was the only one on the planet to do such an odd thing so i’d usually hide or throw away my maps but my mom found and saved a bunch of them. There are a bunch in this twitter thread: https://twitter.com/SlowWaterMvmnt/status/1256006236400693248